~ Reflections ~ 14th June 2011

Hidden Pain

I'm sorry for the pain I've caused
I'm sorry for what I've done
Yes I admit it was my fault
and yes I found it fun.
I'm sorry for the hurt your felt
I'm sorry I made you cry
I understand totally
If you want me to say goodbye.
I don't know if it means much
But I want to tell a tale
About a girl who's short life
Was destined just to fail
She was happy til the age of six
She was emotionally killed
All the hopes and dreams she had
Just faded unfulfilled.
Although no one knew
and no one understood
She continued with her struggle
Trying to pretend that life was good.
She was led to believe
That what he did was right
So she went back for more
Let it happen without a fight.
She would just lay there
Do everything he said
He controlled her body
and he controlled her head.
He raped her mind and body
Stole all the strength she knew
I hope you're still listening
Does she sound familiar to you?
You probably do not know her
Cause no one ever did
Cause behind this happy girl
Was a lonely one that hid.
And the lonely girl was never seen
She only came out at night
When everyone was in their bed
Tucked up sleeping tight
It was then this lonely girl would emerge
to a room so still and dark
the happy girl with wet red eyes
was the lonely girls only mark.
The only way she did emerge
Was through the happy ones tears
Although they shared the same sad heart
Same shattered dreams and fears.
And then when morning came,
No loneliness was found
But deep inside this little girl
Her heart was in the ground.
She'd be up and smile all day
Pretending life was great
While breeding deep inside her
was anger, pain and hate.
For several years this was her life
the only thing she knew
that pain and hate and anger
continuously grew.
At last it reached a certain point
there was no more that she could take
inside her mind exploded
outside she had to break.
so she told them of her story
she told people of her pain
she couldn't tell her perfect family
she couldn't hurt them again.
so she told a complete stranger
but this hurt her family more
December 10th 1996
The first day of the war.
A war that she is destined to lose
she doesn't have a hope
they all have each other
but alone she has to cope.
but still she battles on
even though her fate is clear
she will live a life of pain
resentment, hurt and fear.
It's been almost four years
since the beginning of the war
i don't know how she does it
but the happy one still stands tall
the lonely one still lvies on
te happy side is growing pale
she tries to declare peace
although to no avail.
So now you know the story
would you push this girl away?
Would you leave her unfulfilled?
Leave her to die each day?
If you want to leave her,
I will understand
If you want to help her,
please just take my hand.
If you want to turn your back
I understand that too
But tell me honestly what you'd want
if that lonely girl was you.
- Kirsten.

Song of the Day - Take You Away - Angus and Julia Stone